Red, hot, and sweaty

I had initially started this post from a hospital bed. Some fairly illegible scribbles were made to the terrible tunes pumping from my first roommate’s radio. Honestly, she turned the radio on at 7am, the volume slowly increasing as the day progressed. At one point I was scribbling to ‘A Whole New World’, which I at least found comical, but otherwise the station played just far too much Whitney. The following day I was treated to Mike Hosking first thing in the morning. Torture, I tell you, torture! Rather than biting my already raw tongue I opted for earplugs, which raised eyebrows and questions from passing nurses. Apparently I was the odd one.

    

There has been substantial action since we last conversed, however, I shall tell you from the outset that I am still awaiting lymphoma confirmation. It is difficult to know how to write this post. Flicking through my inpatient scribbles, the legible ones that is, I am struck down by boredom. An essay on all that I have done this September is not at all interesting and so I think I will begin with the most recent experience with hope that any gaps will be filled in as they rise. Let us see how that goes.

Ah, I am already going to digress! The plan did not go well at all. Time for a new plan. As I have mentioned, I have been feeling rather poorly since mid-August. Mainly rigors, fevers and sweats, although there was a period of nausea as well. The tendency is for these symptoms to persist a few days until I confess them to the haem team and am placed on antibiotics through the haem day unit. Initially it was Augmentin for the gum infection. At the next sweaty presentation they opted for regular blood cultures but held off on the antibiotics. That was until a set grew Micrococcus luteus from both lumens of my PICC line. We know it was Micrococcus luteus now, but it takes a while to determine the species of these little beasts and thus I needed a course of vancomycin. Here are a few fun facts about vancomycin: it has poor oral uptake and therefore is given intravenously, it has a higher toxicity than other antibiotics I have taken and therefore is administrated over a two hour period, and it has a short half-life so doses are required every twelve hours. I was obliged to report to the hospital twice a day for two hour infusions, and of course no infusion ever took less than three hours. This routine continued for ten days and although the haem team were fairly certain the growth was merely a skin contaminant, my bloody symptoms subsided (for a mere four days) therefore they had to proceed as if I had line sepsis. I subsequently lost my PICC line and am requiring cannulae and needles again.

Yup, all that is still boring. I think it is in part an attempt to justify my radio silence. Over the past fortnight, possibly longer, I have spent a minimum eight hours a day in Wellington hospital and I am not even working there. Last Thursday (maybe, time frames are becoming a little fuzzy), on top of the vancomycin, I had another surgical biopsy. The surgeons opted for the right axillary nodes (under my right arm) as they had shown themselves as ‘hot’ on my NZ PET scan. I cannot even remember when the PET scan was. I remember that I was pretty unwell for it and they let me lay my arms at my sides throughout, which I appreciated. I think I fell asleep during it. Anyway, the scan is still showing hot nodes and gave the surgeons further options for excision, including the right axillary. My response to the general anaesthetic during this last surgery was far from admirable. I stated my pain level as four out of ten to the recovery nurse, then began physically squirming, perspiring and potentially groaning. “It is not really a four is it Olivia?” “er um no” cue further opiates. The old lady opposite had undergone cranial surgery yet was displaying few pain symptoms. My attempt at staunchness was a pathetic failure. Do not fear, it does get worse. The surgeons decided to keep me overnight and thus I was introduced to my nurse, a girl a few years my junior who had attended the same schools as I from primary (possibly even kindergarten) to high school; one of those individuals you have known your entire life yet you do not actually know in the slightest. She may have gained a little insight into my psyche as I hurled up bile, shivered uncontrollably, and then proceeded to flash the entire ward due to a sexy hospital gown malfunction. No, the general anaesthetic was not as fun the second time around.

At this point I had had another four day ‘rigor free’ period. I had a brief shiver attempt at the haem day ward the day following my surgery, a shiver that resulted in the loss of my PICC line. The remaining three days of vancomycin was delivered via a cannula, as was an impromptu blood transfusion (not phenotyped, by the way, but I guess this is less of an issue now). As it turns out vancomycin is a pesky drug that likes to irritate veins. Presently I cannot straighten my right arm, and although it is not at dacarbazine level, my arm is bloody sore.

Sorry, I was discussing rigors. Friday, I had a minor chill, Saturday a decent rigor, fever, sweat combo, and by Saturday night I was back to a six hour rigor routine. I had feverish dreams where I attempted to get to A&E but for various reasons could never arrive there. Sunday I did not rigor but I did feel warm all day and when I finally conceded to a temperature check Sunday evening, the thermometer revealed it was in fact 40°C. And so we packed an overnight bag and walked across the carpark to the emergency department. I always feel incredibly nervous when attending A&E. I feel as though I am never sick enough to warrant a visit. A component of my feverish A&E dreams was a fine from the ambulance drivers because I did not actually need to attend A&E and therefore I was responsible for the car crash that had occurred (in an underground car park; it made perfect sense at the time, don't question my dream logic). I had been in a daze for most of the day, I definitely felt unwell, but it turns out along with my 40°C fever I had a heart rate of 170. The A&E screening nurse tested the heart rate monitor on himself as he thought it was broken. Although standing was extremely difficult and concentrating on my personal details was nigh impossible, I did not feel as though my heart was beating quite that fast. I was placed in the acute unit in A&E, which may have been overkill. On the floor there were squares indicating the places each clinician should be standing, I guess for extreme emergency cases. In the room beside mine, which was separated by a curtain and a three quarter wall, The Wiggles played loudly on repeat to pacify an ill youngster. I must say that Hot Potato did little to ease my heart rate.

This little episode of mine lead to my admission. IV fluids and antibiotics were administered using a brand spanking new cannula in my left arm, my right being bloody painful and all. The Scottish nurse got the cannula in on her first attempt. I thanked her profusely for her efforts. During my stay I displayed my rigor, fever, sweat combo for all the clinicians to see. I began sleeping, or at least laying, on a towel at night. A red rash had developed on my right forearm. Gradually it spread and now I have the fortune of rocking a full body rash, which is oh-so-attractive and does not at all scare the general public. It turns out I have a drug allergy, but good luck trying to figure which drug it is; any that I have had in the past four weeks is the answer. I guess we’ll find out the next time the culprit is administered, in the meantime I will continue to itch and scratch until it subsides. 

Eventually they released me from the ward and from my second roommate - a roommate that did not require a radio to be utterly annoying. I am thinking how to best briefly summarise her irksome qualities. They certainly cannot go unmentioned, so here goes: shrill unrelenting voice (my earplugs did little to block her pitch), lengthy explanations, exasperated doctors, physically waking me at seven in the morning and a new found love for her religion. This is only a small selection of her many endearing attributes. Therefore, when I was offered the opportunity to return to the cancer accommodation I responded with a vigour that may have been mistaken for good health. It would not have ended well if I was to endure another night with my new friend. As was noted on my discharge summary this little episode, and those prior, are most likely due to my underlying yet unconfirmed disease.

I am aware that this entry has gone on for a while now, and possibly there are few that remain reading, but there is one final aspect to my latest inpatient installment that I feel compelled to comment on. I must confess that I am always surprised when clinicians are polite to me as a patient because my employment encounters had left me with a rather different, some may say less favourable, view. I like all the haem registrars that have treated me, both in Wellington and Brighton. Fortunately I have never worked at either hospital. My career (career being a loose term) is starting to cross over quite seriously with my treatment. Firstly, I am having a few issues surrendering my blood to unknowns in the lab. In the UK the majority of my monitoring bloods were tested in the laboratory I worked in. Even in the Brighton lab I had contacts. Now they are tested in a lab where I know no one, nor their procedures. Perhaps these are control issues that ought to be addressed in a forum that is not so public; but then that is no fun. 

Before my last blood transfusion I sent the first unit of blood back as it was not irradiated. My first day on the ward, it took the doctors seven attempts to get a vein that offered any blood. The vein happened to be in the same arm as my IV fluids and thus the sample was diluted. The lab rang the ward in a panic (I am using dramatic licence here) with a surprise low Hb of 62. I told the nurse “No, it isn’t that low. The sample was diluted and the lab should really have picked up on that”. Liv was grumpy at the prospect of more needles and therefore was disappointed in the lab for failing to detect the diluted sample. She had been testing their ability, a competency assessment if you will. Three more needle attempts later and we had a decent vein with good blood flow, enough to fill a FBC, two coags (overkill right?), a group and save and a chem sample. But alas! The label from the FBC happened to stick to the label of another tube and therefore was deemed unlabelled. I had been pricked ten times already and was facing further needles. The registrar was devastated and, perhaps, the lab rat received the brunt of her frustration. All I know is that she actively conveyed to them how difficult I was to bleed. I suggested that the lab use the spare coag sample to obtain the Hb, which was the only result they actually needed. It is a simple calculation, merely multiply the value by 10/9 and you will have a fairly accurate figure. Fairly accurate was all that was required, merely a confirmation that my Hb was above 80. 

I nearly volunteered wandering up to the lab and doing it myself, hospital gown and all. The indignant scientist refused my citrate suggestion and even went to the effort of taking my doctor’s registration number, presumably to lay a complaint. In the end the repeat sample had to come from my foot. At this point even I was angry at the lab. I wonder which was the worse outcome, an off the record haemoglobin, or cellulitis of the foot due to an infected puncture wound? I think sometimes we scientists may take our job a bit too seriously. I imagine a few wry smiles have appeared on the lips of former colleagues at my last statement. “I hate catchy choruses and I’m hypocrite; hungry, hungry hypocrite” I hmmm, tunelessly.